Over the last few years I have had some very real struggles. I prayed so very much, asking God to help me get control of my life. I was tormented day after day. It was a very troubling time for me, although I tried to hide my struggles to outsiders. Don’t we all? Everyone’s got a battle. Some are more obvious than others. It seems as if something or someone is always ready to take the place of the previous struggle. I bet you can relate.
It hit me today that those very real struggles are gone or no longer a burden for me! How can this be? I prayed for God to heal me and bring peace back and He did. But wait a second, hold up! I didn’t ask for something to replace it! This is not going as I planned. Not at all!
So here I am a week later, and I want my Amber back. I ache to kiss her cheek and smell her. This struggle and grief is taking me over. Sometimes I think I can’t go on. And then someone says or writes just the right thing; or brings us food! I then laugh or cry, and it takes me out of my deep dark hole if only for a moment. The pain is here and it won’t be going away any time soon. People say they can’t imagine what I am going through and they are absolutely right. I was one of those people up until ten days ago. The only people that can truly understand are others that have lost a child….and Jesus.
Hebrews 4:15
"For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who in every respect has been tempted as we are, yet without sin."
"For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who in every respect has been tempted as we are, yet without sin."
I am the type of person that want’s answers. I want to know what the game plan is. What do I do next? How do I get this awful dreadful nightmare to end? How do I overcome this grief that is consuming me? And then I realize, I had some very real struggles before and felt hopeless. Why do I think God can’t take me through this next struggle. He can. I know he can. I think I just need to step aside and let Him take over. Can you relate? So often WE get in the way. Lord help me to move on over!
Matthew 11:28-30
"Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”
"Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”
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